We don’t always wish to talk about the darker aspects of healing, but in my opinion, it must be addressed. Healing is not bright and cheery. It is not a pretty thing and, in all honesty, it can break you, if you are not prepared.

When we begin to dive into the things that have hurt us for healing and releasing purposes, we are now being fully resubmerged in what has initially broken us. Which means, we will feel it all over again. We will essentially be reliving this trauma.

This is a huge reason why some trauma can actually trigger a disassociation of that specific hurt. There are times that our trauma was so great our minds can not handle it and out of a protection mechanism we block it out subconsciously. In situations such as this, I’d recommend a licensed professional.

There can also be instances where things from the past resurface without our willingness and we are sort of forced into feeling it. I had that type of experience with the death of my daughter. It can be shocking to suddenly begin to remember areas that your mind suppressed for a long period of time. Those can be times where you would need to seek out a professional as well. And I did.

There will always be some instances along this journey where outside resources are required; it never means you are weak. Quite the opposite, it shows strength of character to be able to know your limitations and take action where needed for your betterment.

During these deep dives into healing no matter what avenue you may choose to take it is important to understand and fully realize this is not where you currently are in your life. Understand that you have made it to the other side of it. It doesn’t mean it isn’t still painful, but time has pushed us forward.

However, we need to be aware of what has hurt us and not simply push it aside. Not allowing ourselves to fully heal can and will affect our future relationships in all aspects of our lives. We must fully understand the depth of that specific hurt, and dissect it. There can be many facets to each traumatic occurrence that need to be dealt with. This is why, I say it can take us multiple times to heal from one specific hurt.

The thing about trauma is that it is multidimensional, one specific hurt can trigger others, that we had no idea even existed. In most cases I’ve found all of our trauma typically leads back to childhood. Even if it’s not directly. Some type of childhood trauma or toxic thought process is what ultimately leads us to others. Which is why healing can be so hard. We need to track one specific hurt all the way back to its origin in order to fully heal from it all. The root must be found.  

There are other aspects to healing, due to the negative energy that is often attached to trauma and pain. This is of a spiritual nature. Something most don’t consider or even fully believe. See when we are unhealed and in a low vibration, it can manifest into depression which in some can lead to sedation of some kind, which could be in the form of addictions and or isolation. Isolation can be of a physical and or an emotional characteristic. When we are not aware of this behavior on a conscious level, we leave ourselves open and vulnerable to things we cannot see with the naked eye, to attach to us.

They manifest themselves in the form of those coping devices. This is what they appear as to the world. They look like one that has a mental disorder, one who is an addict, no matter what that addiction may be. Science has been able to mask some things over the course of its existence, allowing for some sense of cover for these dark attachments to hide under.

When we hear the saying that one must battle their internal demons…….there is a great deal of truth to that. This is where we not only gain freedom from our trauma and pain, but we break free of those attachments as we do. We tame, our inner turmoil through healing. As we do, our vibration rises and these dark attachments no longer align to us. They are forced to find another host. make no mistake, they will fight to remain.

The fight will be one of an internal kind, where our minds will work against us. Wanting us to remain in that which is thought to be safe and known, even if painful because it is all we know. Our mind will tell us that we can’t do it, that we aren’t strong enough. That this is what we deserve as it plays recordings of all that’s been spoken over us, by people we loved and trusted. These are vicious attachments, who require us to remain stuck for their own survival.

They will fight at whatever cost, so know that you must too. Understand that as we are diving into that healing journey, we will be met with constant and consistent opposition via our minds. We must be aware of who we are and what we believe in and we must come to a place of such brokenness that we choose, life or death. This will be a crossroad for all that choose this journey.

It’s one that many have perished attempting, one that has killed us internally over and over again. Which is called death to self, or ego and pride. It is one that has rendered some closed off and completely shut down. Some turn cold and bitter when they’re faced with this mental turmoil, in a sobering fashion. Some will fall back into a place of discontent but comfort, unwilling to face themselves.

This is not a journey for the meek, it is and always has been one that forges warriors. The courage it takes is humbling, to the individual that sees it through. And that will build a confidence that can never be shaken.